ARC Review : The Last Time We Say Goodbye

The Last Time We Say GoodbyeTitle : The Last Time We Say Goodbye
Author : Cynthia Hand
Rating : 5 Stars!!!

Hardcover, 400 pages
Expected publication: February 10th 2015 by Harper Teen
Source copy : Publisher


There's death all around us.
We just don't pay attention.
Until we do.

The last time Lex was happy, it was before. When she had a family that was whole. A boyfriend she loved. Friends who didn't look at her like she might break down at any moment.

Now she's just the girl whose brother killed himself. And it feels like that's all she'll ever be.

As Lex starts to put her life back together, she tries to block out what happened the night Tyler died. But there's a secret she hasn't told anyone-a text Tyler sent, that could have changed everything.

Lex's brother is gone. But Lex is about to discover that a ghost doesn't have to be real to keep you from moving on.

From New York Times bestselling author Cynthia Hand, The Last Time We Say Goodbye is a gorgeous and heart-wrenching story of love, loss, and letting go.

Source : Goodreads 

Time passses. That's the rule. No matter what happens, no matter how much it might feel like everything in your life has frozen around one particular moment, time marches on. 

Truth here is I can't articulate on this post of how much my heart was broken into tiny little pieces. The beginning was already like a warning of what may have come with the conclusion of all the reasons behind her brother's suicide. Ideally, the novel depicts of holding on and forgiving. It is somehow got an element of taking chances, a chance of opening up to another person and sharing it shamelessly. I loved the way Cynthia Hand was able to ingest those feelings within me.

Then I was with the cloudy moment of brotherly and sisterly love that  formed between them from starting as a kid up to their teenage life. The memories Lex being told were such a happy and memorable ones. Some are totally quite unexpected especially in their adolescence times of course. But what definitely sparked me the most, is the way they support each other. I can feel how Lex keep on grabbing Tyler's body beneath the cliff of her nightmares and foreboding sadness. The tragical moment of two people being separated and manipulated with uttermost loneliness is so unbearable. I can imagine how Cynthia Hand writing this book stopping in a mid-sentence of it and just sob throughout out the way because of her characters feelings.

Another thing that made my heartstrings twitch is Lex's and  Tyler's parents. Their pain is like a double-edge sword, no matter what they do to stop the pain - it will always find its way to bleed. Because there is nothing more hurtful to see their child being engulfed with the pain when they could've somehow notice it earlier. Buried with 'what if's' struck my heart as well. They all kept thinking they should've seen the signs - a sign that Tyler was falling behind. And that fact is such a dreadful thought that no one else can escape. Especially their mother, her pain is something I am difficult to describe no matter how many times I'll read it. Her writing style effortlessly made my heart beats so fast everytime the characters, at one point, wanted to end their lives as well. The words were so full of meaning it made me think how she was able to write those words from the start.

The Last Time We Say Goodbye traveled it's way down to the chasm of loneliness and emptiness and yet it made its way up to acceptance and letting go. This is definitely a heartwrenching book anyone should read at least in their life.